Quick Facts
Name: Moni
Location:
Ontario, Canada
Gender:
Female
Family: 2
Girls ages 16 and 21
Loves:
Family, wolves, dogs, horses
Pets: 2 dogs, a horse and 2 cats
Favorites:
Actor - Nicolas Cage
Actress - Mariska
Hargitay
Singer
- Martina McBride
Band - The Corrs
Lesbianism
Well for those of you who haven't figured it out yet I am a dyke and proud of it.If for some wierd reason you've spent the last 50 years in a jungle in Borneo
a dyke is a woman who is attracted to other women. Ooooh freaky huh!
I've known since I was very young that I liked other girls, but I was afraid to
come out, so I spent most of my life in denial. My best friend and I kinda
played around with it when we were teenagers, but it never went past a
little touching and kissing. I tried to develop relationships with men,
but It just never felt right. Ok, the sex was pretty good at times, but to be
honest most of the time it just felt like I was doing the guy a favor and going
through the motions. I would very likely have spent the rest of my life in denial,
but some how love found me in the strangest of places, a Shania Twain
message board. I don't know what it was about her, but after reading a few
of her posts I knew I was in love. The problem was I didn't even know if she
was gay, only that she wasn't homophobic. I posted a topic for my friends on
the board asking what I should do. The support I got was incredible and there
are people from there who will always hold a special place in my heart for
helping me. The one reply I got though that changed my life forever was from
her. She said "you should tell her because she's probably in love with you too
and too scared to say anything". When I read that I knew I'd have to take the
chance, so I wrote her an email telling her how I felt. You coulda knocked
me over with a feather when a short while later I got an email back saying
she loved me too. It was one of the happiest moments of my life.
Our relationship hasn't been easy. She's Swiss and I'm Canadian and despite
our countries liberal views on same sex partners niether of us has the money
to sponsor the other. We kinda took turns living illegally in each country for
a period of time, However we've also had to spend a great deal of time apart.
This last round is the worst, because she's been in Switzerland for the past
19 months. We were broke and Switzerland pays so much better than here,
so she went back there to get a job so we could pay off some bills.
Unfortunately it's been three years and she never came home.
I find it so stupid that people are all anti gay marriage. What the hell is the big
deal? Church groups say it's a religious union and therefore cannot be entered
into by same sex couples. Ummm...hello...does that mean an athiast couple isn't
supposed to get married? Surely they can't be married in the eyes of God. I
know a few athiast couples (yeah I know. Dykes, athiasts, us sinners just run
in packs don't we). Wow I'm gonna hate to be the one to tell them that they
can't really be married. Imagine telling thier poor kids; "hey ya little bastard;
common over hear and I'll tell ya why mommy and daddy are going to hell". So
If a jewish person gets married by a catholic priest is he really married? And
what's up with all this Justice Of The Peace bullshit? What religion exactly is in
charge of that union in the eyes of God? Talk about an A moral society.
We're just all going to hell ain't we. Then there's those who say that the
purpose of marriage is pro-creation. So how come all those people who got
there parts snipped still get to be married? I had a historectomy, so I guess
I'd be a sinner nomatter what. Damned if I do, damned if I don't, guess I'll
just have a damned good time.
I wish I had some great words of wisdom for people just coming out or
thinking about it, but all I can say is to be true to yourself, your heart and
the one you love and let God, not man, be the judge.
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